Faith in transition

One thing that has struck me today is how my faith has changed during my transition.  I am not a ‘Cradle Anglican’, I came to it later in childhood and into my teen years.  Even then it wasn’t until I was eighteen that my faith had reached a point where I wanted to be baptised.  It was also around that age when I first felt a call to ordained ministry.

When I had my epiphany and realization that I am a woman, not a man as I had been trying to pretend to be for most of my life, my world got turned upside down and inside out.  There has been a lot of pain, laughter and frustration.

One entity with whom I was particularly frustrated at times is God.  Being trans and transitioning is not easy.  At times it felt like I was truly alone.  Somehow through all of the challenges of transition my faith survived, indeed it has grown.  I have also had a number of subsequent smaller epiphanies about how I am called to move forward in life.

I know that the path forward will be full of challenges, frustrations, wanting to bang my head against a wall and sometimes wanting to beat people with a clue-by-four.  Even knowing the challenges and frustration the way forward feels right. I know that continuing down this path I will be, to paraphrase Joseph Campbell, following my bliss. Doing what I am called to be doing,.

One Reply to “Faith in transition”

  1. I continue to pray for you. There truely is nothing better than following the path that feels like the kind of “right” you speak of. We both know that just because it is “following my bliss” it is not easy nor pain free, but it is so what we are meant to be doing. Love you.

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